:)

My age might shows small number,

but I've been through a lot,

I walk, I run, I fall, I stumble and I sober,

Phew, life sure has many slot...

Through betrayal, lies and all of same sort,

Making me a person whom I am today,

When it's gone far too bad and too sad,what's the last resort?

Return and say prayer to Allah swt,as heart always say ;)

Smile and tears add colours and flavours,

Only laughters and cheers I'd like to caress,

Sadness and tough times shall never stay forever,

For without it life is too plain and meaningless.

Grey's Anatomy~ Look on life through Grey

I've lived. I've really really lived. I've failed. I've been devastated. I've been broken. I've gone to hell and back. And I've also known joy. And passion. And I've had a great love. See death for me is not justice. It's a ... end of a beautiful journey. And I'm not afraid to die. The question is, are you? A life in prison or an afterlife ... with your wife. Me or you? Your choice.~Richard Webber



Yes or no. In or out. Up or down. Live or die. Hero or coward. Fight or give in. I'll say it again to make sure you hear me.The human life is made up of choices. Live or die. That's the important choice. And it's not always in our hands.~ Derek Shepherd 


The human life is made up of choices. Yes or no. In or out. Up or down. And then there are the choices that matter. Love or hate. To be a hero or to be a coward. To fight or to give in. To live. Or die. Live or die. That's the important choice. And it's not always in our hands.~Derek Shepherd

For most people, the hospital is a scary place. A hostile place. A place where bad things happen. Most people would prefer church, or school, or home, but I grew up here. While my mom was on rounds, I learned to read in the OR gallery, I played in the morgue, I coloured with crayons on old ER charts. Hospital was my church, my school, my home; hospital was my safe place, my sanctuary. I love it here. Correction: loved it here.~ Meredith Grey.

Ask most people what they want out of life and the answer is simple - to be happy. Maybe it's this expectation though of wanting to be happy that just keeps us from ever getting there. Maybe the more we try to will ourselves to state's of bliss, the more confused we get - to the point where we don't recognize ourselves. Instead we just keep smiling - trying to be the happy people we wish we were. Until it eventually hits us, it's been there all along. Not in our dreams or our hopes but in the known, the comfortable, the familiar. ~Meredith Grey.



It's a common belief that positive thinking leads to a happier healthier life. As children we are told to smile, be cheerful, and put on a happy face. As adults we are told to look on the bright side, to make lemonade, and see glasses as half full. Sometimes reality can get in the way of our ability to act the happy part though. Youre hope can fail, boyfriends can cheat, friends can disappoint. It's in these moments, when you just want to get real, drop the act, and be your true scared unhappy self.~Meredith Grey.



No matter how thick skinned we try to be, there's millions of electrifying nerve endings in there. Open and exposed and feeling way too much. Try as we might to keep from feeling pain, sometimes it's just unavoidable. Sometimes that's the only thing left - just feeling.~Meredith Grey.

The skin is the largest organ in the body - it protects us. Holds us together. Literally lets us know what we are feeling. The skin can be soft and vulnerable. Highly sensitive, easy to break. Skin doesn't matter to a surgeon. We will cut right through it, go inside, find out the secrets underneath. It takes delicacy and sensitivity.~Meredith Grey.

Everyday we get to give the gift of life, it can be painful, it can be terrifying, but in the end it's worth it. Every time. We all have the opportunity to give. Maybe the gifts are not as dramatic as what happens in the operating room, maybe the gift is to try and make a simple apology, maybe it's to understand another person's point of view, maybe it's to hold a secret for a friend. The joy supposedly is in the giving, so when the joy is gone, when the giving starts to feel more like a burden, that's when you stop. But if you're like most people I know, you give till it hurts, and then you give some more.~Meredith Grey.


The best gift I ever got was for Christmas when I was ten - my very first suture kit. I used it until my fingers bled, and then I tried to use it to stitch up my fingers. It put me on the path to becoming a surgeon. My point is sometimes the best gifts come in really surprising packages.~Meredith Grey.


Doctors live in a world of constant progress and forward motion. Stand still for a second, and you'll be left behind. But as hard as we try to move forward, as tempting as it is to never look back, the past always comes back to bite us in the ass. And as history shows us again and again, those who forget the past are doomed to repeat it.~Meredith Grey


Sometimes the past is something you just can't let go of. And sometimes the past is something we'll do anything to forget. And sometimes we learn something new about the past that changes everything we know about the present.~Meredith Grey

They say the bigger your investment, the bigger your return. But you have to be willing to take a chance. You have to understand, you might lose it all. But if you take that chance, if you invest wisely the pay off might just surprise you.~Meredith Grey

It's impossible to describe the panic that comes over you when you're a surgeon and your pager goes off in the middle of the night. Your heart starts to race. Your mind freezes. Your fingers go numb. You're invested. There's someone's mum, someone's dad, someone's kid. And now it's on you because that someone's life is in your hands. Surgeons, we're always investing in our patients. But when your patient's a child, you're not just invested, you're responsible. Responsible for whether or not that child survives, has a future. And that's enough to terrify anyone.~Meredith Grey

Adapt or die. As many times as we've heard it, the lesson doesn't get easier. The problem is we're human. We want more than just to survive. We want love. We want success. We want to be the best that we can be. So, we fight like hell to get those things. Anything else feels like death.~Meredith Grey


More: Grey's Anatomy quotes.

Be Thankful~

Look around and see for yourself, 

we are all different,

in some way,some how,

even siblings are not alike,

not even twins are made alike.

Why Is that?

Because,

God want you to look at me,

and be thankful for who you are,

For me to look at you, 

and be grateful for who i am,

But first and foremost,

for us too see His power,

the power of Our creator,

none of His creature is alike,

even Zebra never have the same patterns.

"Tis true my form is something odd,

But blaming me is blaming God;

  Could I create myself anew

I would not fail in pleasing you.

If I could reach from pole to pole

Or grasp the ocean with a span,

I would be measured by the soul;

The mind's the standard of the man."

~adapted from "False Greatness" by Isaac Watts~

We, being only human being,

has no right to judge any of His creatures,

no matter how, we must be thankful and be grateful,

Thankful to God for giving us chance to even live & breathe,

and for that, we shall live our life well,very well,

so that it'll be worth living.

(^_^)

If you can't change it, embrace it :')

it's Tae Ho's story.

this morning,i came across a video about Tae-Ho,

a young boy, born without arms..

but still, he's a very positive boy.

here,let's watch and be thankful.

another one,

he even starred in Hyundai CF

~i wish him a bright future ahead!~

Sister!

xDD not exactly! this entry is not dedicated to my real sister, but to my lovely sister that i met at Intan Accounting firm. kekeke, her name,lets just call her Kak Filah (sis Filah).. the first time we met was almost 5 months ago. that time i was at the HQ,it was my first day of practical training. we were asked to introduced ourselves. there were 8 of us(?),not quite sure now. we all were called into the office,and had a brief introduction session. my 1st thought of her then was, "she's sweet". well, at least she seems like a sweet person to my eyes:P

almost a month there, i came to realize i never-ever said a word to her,and neither she. after sometime, she has 'this' vibe to her, like i'm scared of her!! hahahaha and then, the boss told me that three of us will be located to a new office that will be opened in Pasir Puteh.those 'lucky' 3 happened to be me, Ain and Kak Filah. ever since that announcement, i said to myself,that i must make friend of Kak Filah, but then, i couldn't even get close to her.hahahaha, really, i was really intimidated by her,i don't know why.

however, there's always good news. a fellow friend told me that Kak Filah is a K-poppers tooo, meaning that she love Kpop. i further asked, how deep is her love for Kpop? the friend told me, well, almost as my level. hahahahaha, at that time, i phew-ed.. this is great start. well, we're gonna have sooooo much more to talk about.

then, we moved to Pasir Puteh. only three of us stranded here :P bosses from HQ would be making trip to our new office just ensure we're settling well. i still remember, borrowing her external disk to copy some Kpop videos,just to discover she's almost the mirror image of me!!! hahahahaha, we both categorized our Kpop videos in the same order,and looking at her, feels like looking at myself.we're so much alike. (at least that's what i think) just that i don't have her flawless skin :P

at that time too, situation at home was getting sour. i was depressed. i bottled everything inside me, i do not tell other, i rarely share my feeling with others.as i think my friend would be too immature for me to share my problems.

luckily there's Kak Filah. she's older than me by few years. to her i would spill a hell loads of things. we would talk about my problems, and sometime she told me hers. it does feel nice to have somebody listening to us ranting and to share our feeling and thoughts. i don't know why, i trust her. talking to her would make me feel a miles better,each time. she listens to me, and at the same time would give me great advices. as time goes by, just the sight of her,lift a lil bit burden from me.

so,the point of this entry? yes, i don't have any words to tell her or to describe to her how grateful i am for having a wonderful friend like her. she's indeed a great sister to me. if it was not for her, i think i might be extending this practical training to next semester.all thank to her for giving me strength to carry on. i wish i could do something in return too. Kak Filah, Thank you sis, only Allah knew how grateful i am to meet u! Thank u,Thank u! Love u!

the challenge!~

so i guess today will not be a wordless Wednesday!
as i found something very interesting,
the urge to post can't be tamed anymore! :O

actually i've seen this challenge in most blogs that i visited while i'm blogwalking,
it's somehow a competition that already ended on 1st March 2011..

but still being the stubborn me,
i want to do it!

i'm not in need of any prizes right now,
so i guess i'll be doing it for fun! :D
yaay!
lets do it with together!

and oh! this challenge requires us to post a picture a day!
expect loads of pictures by the 30th day!

here's the challenge!

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Day 1 - A picture of yourself with fifteen facts (you don't have to reveal your face)

Day 2 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest

Day 3 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show

Day 4 - A picture of something you'd like to do again

Day 5 - A picture of something you love

Day 6 - A picture that makes you laugh

Day 7 - A picture of the person you do the silliest things with

Day 8 - A picture of your hero / knight / heroine

Day 9 - A picture of you and the person who has gotten you through the most

Day 10 - A picture of your most treasured item

Day 11 - A picture of something you hate

Day 12 - A picture of your favorite memory

Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist

Day 14- A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die

Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you

Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently

Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity

Day 19 - A picture and a letter (choose any photo and write short entry to explain why you've chosen it)

Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel

Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget

Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at

Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book

Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change

Day 25 - A picture of your favourite day

Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you

Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member

Day 28- A picture of something you're afraid of

Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile

Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss

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have a lovely day!